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[01 Apr 2005|12:48pm]
i do believe yesturday was by far one of the best days i have had in a long time. =] i hung out with anthony &we went to mountian high. i dont know why but everytime i am with him it seems like that's all i need. he means so much to me &i'm very excited that we are finally back together.

sometimes i wonder if that's all i'll ever need. i love him so much &it still gives me butterflies just talking to him, or holding his hand.



&i hate girls who hang out with anthony at mcdonalds &give him kisses on his cheek &tell him that she likes him. DAMN YOU. ♥ that's about it.
7 ♥. fuck it

[30 Mar 2005|08:26pm]
meh, my life's so boring.
BUT! i'm pretty excited about tomorrow.
=] i'm hanging out with the one person i care about.
which is crazy cause i honestly thought things
would have never ended up with this way. ♥
lauren's leaving for mexico tomorrow.
i'm not going to have anyone to play with.
daaang. tear. i'm going to miss her.
school on monday. =[ not too happy about that
i was enjoying my spring break.
3 ♥. fuck it

[21 Mar 2005|04:59pm]
went to knotts yesturday with nicole, lauren, nick, shane, &taylor
me and nicole split up and followed "hot pants" but.
apparently nick &shane heard us lmao. it was
an all around fun day =] &today i went snowboarding.
&got burnt, it was amazing. that's about it
fuck it

[18 Mar 2005|07:47pm]
SPRING BREAK BITCHES ♥ =]
fuck it

WHOO HOO. [15 Mar 2005|04:48pm]
today my friends is tuesday &i just got back from tutoring a little bit ago
&hung out with garrett, logan &nicole. =] it was so fun.
i miss geometry with those boys so much. well, yeah now i'm studying &
stressing out like no other. =[ wish me luck with fiiiinals!
i ♥ nicole pare &lauren, cause we have awesome raves in the center of those big cement chairs =]
fuck it

[13 Mar 2005|06:16pm]
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well i didn't get to go snowboarding with my mom afterall cause she didn't get her paycheck thingy ... (suuuucks) so i stayed home, and layed out for a bit, cause god only knows how white i am lol. so yeah, we'll see if it starts to pay off, but then about five-ish RHONDA FLIPPING FACE came over and we chilled in the spa, &then taylor todd showed up. weird story. lmao. ♥ aaand we just kinda hung out.

that's about it. i'm lame &have no friends. =]
1 ♥. fuck it

[12 Mar 2005|10:19am]
[ mood | apathetic ]

i think i want to go lay out a little today. because i am just about the whitest thing you'll ever meet ♥ lol.


then going snowboarding with mia madre. just me &her. it's cool that we are finally talking more now. i miss her sometimes. but i know i'm better off here.
2 ♥. fuck it

[11 Mar 2005|06:42pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

ugh, all i can say is that my life is so hectic. i just seriously jsut can't wait till the end of the day, when i can go sit in my room and shut the door &seclude my self from life. it seems so much easier that way, everything has been so confusing this past month, well just about every day. i'm not sure where i'm going with this whole "get good grades" "always have a smile on your face"

WELL YOU KNOW WHAT I DON'T WANT TO SMILE ANYMORE. NOTHING SEEMS TO MAKE ME HAPPY, WHEN I COME TO SCHOOL IT'S LIKE A HELL THAT I CAN'T LEAVE, & I JUST WANT TO MAKE IT STOP!

i have some of the most loving friends &i feel like i don't even know them anymore. it sucks, i want things to go back to the way they used to be. 9th grade was so amazing i had sooo many great times with chantel, angelica, nicole, rhonda, ashley & ditching community service, & hanging out with garrett, gavin, &logan with angelica in geometry. &sooo much more lol. and now we barely even talk, i just wonder if like this is just the ways things are going to be? it's scary. &i want all of us to be friends again. maybe i just miss being young &relentless with life, &now i'm just realizing that everything isn't going to be hunky dory in the end.. but GOD, if i could do it all over again, i would take out all the arguments, &fights, &drama, &make sure that it was the best times of our lives.
fuck it

[14 Feb 2005|05:40pm]

 

okay. so i supposed i should start writing in this thing again ?

 

what do you say?

well yeah, life hasn't been all that great i just found out i'm failing a class. whoo.. &on top of it all its valentines day and i do not have a valentine, or a boyfriend, which both are my fault. it's funny cause when you make a mistake once with a great guy and then dump them, you should figure that you won't want the same mistake twice right? RIGHT? well i guess i'll never learn.. this is sucks.

 

i miss you x3568

1 ♥. fuck it

[07 Jan 2005|07:57pm]
school sucks ; life sucks ;

tell me please when things will get better..








im really starting to miss you more.. =\




<l3
fuck it

[06 Jan 2005|02:39pm]
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okay so i hate my life. but yeah; who gives a fuck. its just me, yeaaaaah. i dont know, im just sick of sooo much stuff that has been going on lately and it just really hurts right now. </3>wish it would. so therefore i believe i owe all my friends an apology. =| who knows.. but yeah i love you all
fuck it

[22 Dec 2004|07:46pm]
helllloooo everyone.
i need a break from life.

so help me;; NOW








buh bye
fuck it

[08 Dec 2004|01:59pm]
[ mood | happy ]

hello everyone <3 im in the library right now with my wife kim yeah its pretty darn awesome she, she is drawing another picture of how she wants to paint her room blue ; fuschia ; bright green ; with  LiGHTNiNG BOLTS! its really pretty. lol. but umm yeah life has been great i love my boyfriend. even if things are a little off right now<3 im very happy i have him. cause yeah well ben's been a dick and stupid and yeah long story short.. dumped ben sat. anthony asked me out monday =) im very happy with him though so yeah, ben this is for you:

                                                "GROW UP. iM SORRY"

goodness i swear, boys these days lol im jk . but yeah umm kims making me a greeting card so yeah im going to get back to work, then when i get out of school.. guess what.. more homework =) ... jk =( but uhh yeah i love you all<3

ONE FOUR SEVEN

6 ♥. fuck it

SCHOOL♥ [02 Dec 2004|09:22pm]
chyes.
i love you all. and im sooo sorry that i have been gone so much lately. life has been so hectic.</3>four days</b> lol but yeah schools been pretty good =) but ummmmmm yeah im bored ilove you all
fuck it

[28 Nov 2004|01:19pm]
yay<3

im back,

but dont worry im still the same old maureen =)

i love you all<3 but at the moment im packing because me and ashley decided that i am going to move in with her, shes is going to clean out a drawer and a part of her closet for me, and then, we are going to eat SANDWICHES &COCONUT POPSICLES<3 YAY! i love her to death. no joke<3






i hate homework =\
4 ♥. fuck it

[28 Oct 2004|06:29pm]
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahhaa

you know its actually a quite funny story ya know.. maureen got sick of her background. plus the fact that someone else has that picture anywayssss.. so i get mad and decided to play mr. random turn out game with my lj. hahah you can tell it worked right? umm not even. just kidding.

heeeeelp . lmao shit what would i do without this random nonsense.

but for real i need help with the layout. im such a fucking screw up. every damn day
fuck it

[27 Oct 2004|07:32pm]
yeah. i offically miss chantel thiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiis much. im soo not even joking.

yeah. umm. school sucks. and i hate ashley wood. thank you for reading about my life.

kthanks&bye



=)
2 ♥. fuck it

[23 Oct 2004|12:14pm]
alrighty well today is homecoming. blaaah bens coming &picking me up at seven. then dinner, then the dance. im nervous. cause i dont know how everything is going to end up turning out tonight and there are some exceptional fews that i dont quite feel like seeing =\ we'll see i guess. i know it'll be a fun night all around though. but yeah. the football game was pretty fun i hung out with georgie most the time, and craig when some hoe bag wasnt pissing me off. god seriously out of all the girls he chooses to "like" hahah cough cough. he just had to choose her. lol seriously....... grrrrrrrrrrrrr

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yeah.. im pretty pissed at her. so i gotta let my rage out. but ummm im not really "feelin'" my dress.. it's cute and all, but with my figure and odd tall ass i think its gunna look homo. oh well screw it.


sweetheart...Collapse )</3
1 ♥. fuck it

[19 Oct 2004|01:51pm]
in the computer room with my loves.

ashlei ..
amanda ..
&emily ..
<3





peace out
fuck it

[18 Oct 2004|07:01pm]
well not much to say. last night taylor, rhonda and david r. were over;

--- hung out
--- watched gothika
--- me and tay freaked
--- beat david up
--- ehh.. then slept.

went out and saw the forgotten with taylor and lauren today. craig &georgie called me and were being asses. thats about it. taylor and lauren are at the branding iron right now for some 5th grade reunion thing. blaahh
fuck it

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